Really love tiong loads haha even though she always whines and abandoned her sissie with me on the second day =.= Haha but she generously offered to pay for my trip, if not I would never have made it for the church camp. And she ended up sleeping in the crack between the two beds because of this.
Honestly I have nothing but thanksgiving for this camp=)
First and foremost, for my bestie of sorts Tiong who so generously paid for my trip and being my zhi ji for 7 years. Thanks for bringing me closer to God after you started going to church and for simply being my nonsense friend for so many years and being part of my guides clique and part of dabian in ur face hahahah and my jc class, and my cca mate of 6 years haha. God must have sent you to me =)
Secondly would be for all the wonderful things I learnt during the messages. Even though I did not manage to attend the first two days, I really learnt a lot from the remianing messages. Usually I would just skip through Ecclesiastes(For non christians, its a book of the bible in the old testament) because its really quite hard to understand with its proverbial wording. Partly because I thought that since King Solonmon was such phailwhale at being a christian( he is the author of the book) then I need not read it. However the messages made me realise how much wisdom was taught in the book. Amazing how much truth a 2000 year old book can teach us=) Its also amazing how often I grapple with legal theory and all the philosophical stuff yet I can understand it so well and find the lessons calling out to me. It truly must be the work of Jesus Christ=)
A simple summary would be that a life without God is simply vanity. Fear God and Keep his commandments for this is the whole duty of man.
The book of Ecclesiastes is both a warning and a comfort at the same time=)
1. Ecclesiastes showed me how meaningless everything we chase in this life is. If even Solonmon the richest and smartest man in the earth at that time could not find any satisfaction in women riches or knowledge, how could we? Haha, sometimes I put fun and friends above church, but I guess this ismeaningless without God. So dear God please remind me>.< Actually i ponning church to go belaying course haish. I see something bad happening already. Maybe I should tlel my parents I dun wanna go =(
2. It taught me to treasure and enjoy all that is good and perfect gifts from God. There is no need to look back and want things from the past. Yupppp. Sometimes I yearn for the times when my parents dun quarrel, but I should be thankful for everything i have now=) my grandma, I have food to eat, I have funny bros like Jospeh and Jonathan hehe and all my wonderful hallmates, my law peeps, my rv peeps and Adriel, and the cali draggers and the choir peeps. So thank god for everything. Thank God that I get to go to church.
3. There are days of prosperity and hardship that have been ordained by God and there are things you can never find out and you would not go anywhere if you tried to know everything. Life is an adventure that God plans for you =)
Recently, I made some stupid mistakes during work that I cannot say here because of confidentiality issues. But it plagued me for the first day during camp because while I do not need the part time job, I know that its my bosses rice bowl. I really felt like crying especially after I heard that they kena scolded like shit because of what me and my shift partner did. And though I considered the risk, I proceeded on because I thought the risk would not materialise. I really did what I did with good intentions to help other ppl.
The above scripture lesson however comforted me a lot=) I guess this incident may be God’s way of allowing me to grow up, and he may have his own reasons for allowing this to happen. I am sure that God has his reasons. At the very least, this incident not only taught me some limits on what I can do, it also showed me how kind my bosses are=) I heard from my shift mate that one of them took all the scolding for us and he din even scold me. The other one just told me to work harder next time. I guess the worst situations allow you to see the best in ppl=) I hope they become big bosses haha then I can work for them when i become a lawyer next time.
This incident also reminded me of the time I got chased back from my shift because I was super late. Thank God for that lesson. After that time I am always half an hour early for work. Haha. Even though it was really scary to get chased back, at least it taught me some good work ethic=) (though I still late when I go out with friends and bf>.< that one I still need to learn) But still thank god so much for allowing me to get chased back=) Haha.
3. We should never shortcut in life.
Sometimes I feel its ok to slack because that what everyone does. Actally i very guai alr-.- I never even take toilet break most of the time during my shift. I slack more when studying -.- hash. I always hand in substandard work because i wanna play. After seeing my 2.6 CAP i realli regret my decisions. Once again, thank god for allowing me shitty grades because it taught me never to slack. Moreover I am sure that God allowed it for a reason. To be honest I am really scared that I will not be able to get a training contract or be stuck in a dead end job because my grades. I really am, but since God ordains all things, I am sure he has a way for me as long as I trust him. So thank God, there must be a reason for this.=)
I find it very hard to admit it, but in primary sch i was this super toot and super irritating girl who everyone including teachers hated. I had no friends because I was super weird. All I wanted was to be like those popz kids in class with a lot of friends. Haha tbh i only had two friends in primary sch qiqi and janice la though I thank god for them because I would have died of loneliness if not for them. But when I look back now, i realised that if God made me super pretty and popz last time I would have been a very mean person. I dun mean to say that popz ppl are not nice. I mean to say that I am inherently not a very nice person, and I would have become a not very nice person. Because i was totally outcasted and rejected I can totally empathise now with all those ppl that everyone think is weird, toot and nobody wants to friend because that was me and actually is me now la. Thats why I dun dislike anyone now because I can totally empathise with them. Actually sometimes I feel these ppl are actually the nicest la=) Maybe God made me the worst kind of person so that I will be a person who can serve him better=) so thank god. It was terribly lonely in lower sec and in primary sch, but thank god because I would not be the person I am if not for this.
4. Dun blame God for the sufferings and sins that you see because it is man’s sins which is responsible.
For the past few months, my family has been in turmoil. I come from a christian family, but even though my parents call themselves christians, there is nothing christ like in their behaviour towards each other. I was honestly very angry with God for allowing them to act this way especially since I couldnt understand why he allowed them to hurt each other and the ppl around them including showing my grandmother a very bad testimony: one of the reasons why she doesnt believe in christianity is my parents’ constant quarrels. But I guess God doesnt owe us anything to stop us from sinning or to save us. And he must have allowed their quarrel for a good reason so I pray that God’s perfect will will work and he will allow me to see it.=) I pray for my brothers too, because I can see how they are wasting their intelligence away by playing com games 24hrs a days. I pray for my brothers because I can see how lonely Joseph is. He is like the second me in primary sch=(
5. We have an everlasting hope in the life after.
Yuppie so thank god for the amazing message.
Thirdly, have to thank god for all the cute younger sisters I got during church camp: Hannah, Grace and Ung Sing.
Always wanted a younger sister, but dunno why the sibling come out always got extra appendage one -.- Thought the second time it would finally be a sis, but haish….. Oh well, bros are fun in the sense that you can be super chor lor and play games with them hahaha.
Though it was pretty stressful having to take care of them la, but they are super funny, especially Hannah! Haha, accidentally ate her pet”hard boiled egg”. She and grace came to my room to wake me up. Then Hannah brought a hard boiled egg cos I skipped breakfast to sleep more, so i happily ate it thinking she dabaoed breakfast for me. LOL. turns out she called it her pet egg >.< oops. anyway the “egg” grew out of my head after simone kicked me in the head when capzing from the banana boat together with three ulcers(cos i bit myself) and severe neckache haha. I guess i getting retribution. 😄
Then I had to bring them to the sea to play with the constant nagging worry that Hannah would drown. Haha, turns out she swimming gold so she technically can swim better than me -.-
And the scariest incident was when Ung Sing’s boarding pass couldn’t pass the checkpoint when we were on our way to Batam and both Tiong and Tim Chong alr cleared the check point,. So i was stuck outside with Tiong’s sis. Lol. was prepared to hop on a cab and go home liao. Thank God they found her original boarding pass. haha. finally know how moms all feel having to take care of kids>.<
Yuppies so thank god, hope i can talk to them more often=)))
Hahah yuppie, so thank god for the eventful and fun church camp =) Hope i will have a good church camp with my parents at my own church’s camp enxt week